I don't know how often I will be on here .... between teaching and grad school... life is busy.  The garden is going crazy right now too.  Tomatoes did well. Peppers haven't done well for some reason, they grew really tall but very little fruits.  Potatoes did well too. 
This semester I am in Pathophysiology and Nursing theory.  ALOT of reading.  Theory has papers, pathophys has tests.  ugh. no more fun times for me. 
blessings dears!!!

the season is upon me and my postings will probably become fewer.  Summer classes were good, an eye opener.  got my syllabus for Pathophysiology and am freaking a little.  Numerous chapters every week, 4 exams, and huge powerpoints from the prof.  (first one is 46 PAGES - 3 slides to a page) 

Teaching school begins the same day as grad school.  I will have 15 seniors and 16 juniors.  I have several students I am concerned about because of learning difficulties.  We shall see.  and the administration is micromanaging how a lab instructor teaches.  When will they learn?  never.

here at home the garden is doing well because I have watered every other day.  Emmie is almost done with her summer classes and will graduate with her 2 year early childhood degree next June.  so hard to believe.  my youngest will be off and running. She is considering a 12 week stint in Cleveland at the famous nanny school ($8800) and her dad and I told her to pray about it ~ ALOT.  That is a ton of money, but she believes her associate degree + the nanny school certificate will make her more marketable. I am praying.

and Sam is leading church camp for the young guns.... ages 7-12.  Ends tonight.  Thankfully the weather cooled down.  we are very concerned about his job - money is down at church again.... so payroll cuts are the first thing to happen.  I wonder what God thinks we haven't learned yet.  The tax situation is taken care of thru the chapter 13 hearing. One day at a time.  also we got a new accountant as the old accountant didn't know what he was doing. 

and at the end of each day i am reminded the Lord is on His throne and He is faithful to care for me and want the best for me - even in the fallen world.  blessings!!!

Hey friends... I do not know how much I will be able to post. Grad school has begun and I have so much work!!!!! Sorry about that.  I am almost done with summer classes so I will post more.  But then fall quarter begins..  How are all of you?  hope things are good, no one sick or on fire or anything like that.  More in about 2 weeks.  Thanks for understanding!!!  blessings, me

First day of summer is this week.... but we have had several 90 degree days already.  and lots of Rain.  I actually had some tomato plants that got fungus and I tossed them due to rain.  I have a feeling July and August will be extremely dry and we will want rain.  I have everything mulched heavily with straw.  Tomatoes, potatoes, green beans, peppers.  I am having trouble with the lettuces and can't figure out why.  Samwise built me new fence around the bed, but I wonder if the birds got in and ate the seedlings. I will plant again.
I have already begun grad school.  Statistics started last week and my first test is tomorrow. The class is four mornings a week for four weeks.  Nursing begins tomorrow night and is three nights a week for five weeks. Fall semester begins Aug. 22nd when the regular school year begins.  Should be an interesting three years. 
Otherwise not much else.  I will try to get here once a week... am praying for all of you... hope all is well with each of you.  blessings!!!

so. I got into grad school.  for the next 3 years I will be taking 2 classes every semester.  plus I have 620 clinical hours to fulfill in the 2nd and 3rd year.  I will be doing this while working full time.   I am hopeful as the Lord so far has taken care of everything.  I start this summer with a grad Stats class and a Nursing Inquiry class.  I will try to keep writing this summer but not sure about during the school year.  more later. 

i know it is Mother's day.  i have 3 children. i have a mother still alive.  but i am the one with the crazy mother.  and i fear becoming like her.  something happened to her when my youngest went to high school.  my mother came to the conclusion she wasn't needed or loved in the right way by us. so she found someone else who would 'love' her. i use the word 'love' lightly because  her definition of 'love' is rather narcissistic and self serving.  she found a 54 year old homeless jobless alcoholic with  huge mental health and physical health issues.  for two years she acted like a 13 year old trying to hide her relationship with this man.  and then they ran off and got married in Las Vegas.

my mother hasn't spoken to me in almost 5 years.  in that time period i was finishing up therapy for depression and some issues from my growing up.  this has been a defining moment in my adulthood.  she isn't dead, but she is. she has absolutely no idea what she has done ~ the damage she has caused with her granddaughter's relationship with her. she will never understand.  it is all my fault. I am the one to blame for all of this.  i doubt she will ever understand. 

we all make choices.  in making our choices we need to stop and consider the ripple effect of the choice.  how many will it hurt?  what will the long term repercussions be? is there a better choice?  my mother only ever thought about herself. i didn't realize that until i was an adult.  i am hopeful not to repeat her choices.

oh, maybe I shouldn't say it that way.  it is just that I am too busy ~ not that I have said yes to anything, but grading papers, schoolwork and life. my poor hubby and i crash into bed at night and i go right to sleep as does he.  i am all curled up next to him and we are both sleeping. and soon I will be taking graduate classes ~ because I got into grad school!!!!!!!  BUT I miss reading books, sewing, crocheting.... when will there be time this summer to garden and can?  the necessary things to keep us going during these hard times of life.  I miss my ladies Bible study.  but I need to do this whole school thing. our income is not getting bigger and is getting stretched further.  no matter what the leader of our country says, here where we are, there is a depression.  food, gas and all prices are going up.
I wonder about my children.  Or if they have children.  How will we all make it? I don't know how I will pay for grad school.  or insurance bills.  or gasoline.  And if we think about it too much, we could go crazy.  so I need to go to bed earlier and have life in bed.... or sex!  love you hubby!!!!  

Gorgeous day today!!!  I took pictures inside and outside, had a friend over with her little 14 month old (i want one to borrow!), laundry, dusted (don't have a heart attack honey) and some other small things.

Here are the outdoor pics:

Here are the indoor pics:

Just back yesterday from The Inn at Honey Run.  Sam and I left Sunday afternoon and got back yesterday late afternoon.  Our oldest daughter had given us the gift at Christmas and because of my school schedule we went this week.  It was AMAZING.  We had spent a night there before for one of our anniversaries... in one of the Honeycomb rooms.  Reminds me of what a hobbit home might be like.  This time we stayed in the main lodge and had a corner room overlooking the honey run, wooded area and lots of wildlife.  We had a fabulous time.  Part of the package was a couples massage which we had on Monday at 3.  Sam wasn't too sure about it as he had never had one, but I was looking forward to it.  We paid for the aromatherapy oil massage and it was well worth it.  And the food!!  oh my.... so very good.  We also spent some time shopping in Berlin, where there are many stores to spend lots of money in or just browse.  I will get some pictures up later... if you are ever needing a get away.... come to Ohio and spend several nights at The Inn... you won't regret it.  blessings!!

and so it begins.  the Journey for the Man that saved my soul.  i will watch 'The Passion of the Christ' by Mel Gibson.  no matter what you might think about Mr. Gibson, this movie is the epitome of insight into the last week on Earth for my Saviour, His mother, and His disciples.  i cannot imagine, but this movie helps me.  and i cry every time through every part. 
what will you be doing this week?